painting with watercolors

Okay, I can't say I haven't gotten to paint some. Lukas, my almost three year old, loves to paint. I started him on with watercolors in which he quickly learned to blend all the colors together to get brown. And so he paints with a lot of brown. We started with GLOB watercolors but he quickly wanted more so I gave in and let him use some van gogh watercolors. (more on GLOB later) I LOVE that my little man loves to paint. I only wish I had enough frames to put them all in and hang them!

 I helped with the sun and the tree in this one. Yes, look closely you'll see them.

forget the beef, where's the peace?

It's 1:15 am and this is my free time. I haven't posted in such a long time due to the fact that I have recently given birth yet again. This pregnancy was much harder than the first one and I am just now starting to aquire some sort of normalcy. Ah...where to begin?

I spent a great deal of this pregnancy feeling very depressed and stressed out. Should I talk about that or about how it all lead up to me going into labor two weeks early and giving birth naturally in an operating room, not at all how I had planned.

Or should I focus on the now, and how strange it is to quit working to be a stay at home mom to a newborn and almost three year old. To worry about being a one income family, about being a good mom, a good wife, a good daughter, sister, friend, about losing myself completely...

Will I ever find peace again? or the time to paint?

These are the questions I torture myself with. I'm convinced if I try to start documenting them it may all become clear, or at least a bit less foggy.

craft shows got me bummed.

I'm a little bit bummed because all the spring craft shows are taking applications now and all the spring craft shows are scheleduled for one month before my due date. So I'll be eight months pregnant and if this pregnancy is anything like the last one I could deliver up to three weeks early. Sooooo....it's a little daunting to think ahead and come up with all the fees and apply when I don't even know what's going to be happening then. And if I didn't get accepted, well, I'm not sure my fragile mind could handle rejection right now. So I'm thinking I just shouldn't even try. Just wait a year or two. :( Will my dreams ever come true?

Christmas gift.

This is a painting I did for my husband's parents for Christmas. I just haven't been able to give it to them yet. I hope they like it. :) I used acrylic paint which is not my favorite medium but I figure I shouldn't be using oils being with child and all.

Christmas Card

I have an awesome pen pal who lives in Texas. This is a Christmas card I made for her. I really like it and I think she will too. :)

New Cards!!!

 I'm working on some new cards for spring. I'm hoping I will be able to participate in an art fair or festival of some sort, and to do so I need a good supply of cards to sell. So far this is what I have. These are all hand drawn with black ink (and a little blue) and colored with colored pencils.

 The envelopes match the cards.

pregnant

I will be seven weeks pregnant tomorrow and I don't feel like doing anything. I have lost all motivation and inspiration. I just want to eat and sleep and not throw up. I know it will get better. I just pray that everything is going to be okay. Ofcourse God does not give us anything we can't handle. With Him I am strong.