Monday, February 16, 2009

twelve weeks!

Ok, so it's been a while since I've posted anything but I have a good excuse. I'll be twelve weeks pregnant tomorrow and an alien has taken over my body. Yes, it's true, I have not been myself for quiet some time. It all began back in the fall when I first found out I was pregnant, then nine weeks later had a miscarraige. I was devastated. Then on December 22 I tested positive with a hpt. (home pregnancy test) My husband and I couldn't believe it had happened so fast. It was our Christmas miracle. Ofcourse after just having had a miscarraige we were nervous. We only told a few people and tried very hard not to get to excited. Then as the weeks went by my symptoms became more and more intense. Nausea, bloating, gas, moodiness (extreme moodiness), heartburn, fatigue you get the idea. And worst of all I lost all desire to create. I've had no inspiration at all. This is sooooo not me. It's made me depressed and sad and I just want this part to be over with! The good news is the pregnancy seems to be on track. We've had four ultrasounds so far and the baby is growing by leaps and bounds. We've seen the heartbeat, then we got to hear the heartbeat (amazing) and we even saw it's little hands and little fingers. So I'm hoping that now that I've reached 12 weeks my symptoms will start to fade and I will get back some of the old me. I'm already feeling a little better but still all I want to do is sleep. Oh, and now the headaches are hitting me pretty hard. Ugh, being pregnant is sooooo not as fun as I thought it would be. How do women do this? How have women been doing this since the beginning of time? With no medicine or doctors? It's mind boggling. But not as mind boggling as knowing there is another lifeform growing inside me. That blows me away. So, this is why I haven't been posting anything or doing anything. to whom it may concern...