Art major for hire.

When my mom and dad were growing up they did what they were supposed to. They got a job nomatter what it was. It didn't matter if they liked it, it was just what they had to do. Thats what the older generations did. They worked. Even if and when that job made them miserable.

I am living in a generation that has been told, do what you love. Do what makes you happy.  Follow your dreams. And with todays technology that has become more possible than ever. So why am I 36 and still waiting for my dream to come true?

You see, I was an art major. I knew before I even started college that I was going to be an art major, because thats what I  love. That is my passion. That is what makes me feel complete,  happiest, fulfilled.

My parents
both think that was a waste of time, mostly because after getting my BA I still can't find a decent job in art, or any job in art.

So where is my dream?

I opened up an etsy shop but it doesn't compare to getting a salary. The only time I ever get to do art is under the shroud of night when everyone is asleep. So what am I doing?

I need a plan.

Help please.

aaaahhhhh!!!!

aaahhhhh!!!!

okay, so being a stay at home mom is great. Once you get past the insanity of being with a toddler and a newborn all day it's really wonderful. Now, there are the bills. So many bills and one less income equal enormous amounts of stress. So I have been listing things on ebay like crazy and just when we make a sell and I think yay things are looking up, something happens and we are pulled back down. down, down down the spiraling debt hole, where there is no end, and there is no light. I'm particularly upset about this tonight because today I made a mommy boo boo and I paid our electric bill twice. Apparently earlier this month when I called to pay it they told me the billing department was closed on weekends and to call back monday.Yeah, because I'm so good at remembering things when I have a toddler and a baby and a husband (ladies you know what I mean). So here it is weeks later and I realize not only did I forget to pay it but I miracously find the letter telling me they will shut off our electricity on tuesday if the bill is not paid on monday. So in a panic I scheledule for my bank to pay the bill only it can'tgo through until monday. shouldn't be a problem but I'm still worried. So today I call the electric company and pay over the phone (they charged an extra five dollar pay over the phone fee added to the already late fee). but it's paid, whew, so then I go to my bank and try to cancel the payment I had scheleduled for them to make. too late. it's already in progress and can't be stopped. they tell me to call the electric company. so I do and they tell me there isnothing they can do besides credit it to my account, which means next month for once my payment will not be late. but where does that leave me now? That's over $400 gone out of what very little money we have. Now more bills won't get paid. aaaahhhhh!!!! I know that somehow we will make it. (we have very loving parents) but it just sucks for lack of a better word. so if you follow me on twitter and you are getting sick of all my attempts of trying to sell you things just bear with me. I've got diapers and formula and bills to worry about.

okay, just needed to rant. I know God will provide. He always does.